hello again!

how was the maths exam everyone? i think it was different from all the past years. if fennie didn't ask me about the maximum and minimum point without having to use differentiation i would have left the 6th or 7th question (if i am not mistaken) blank. to be honest i didn't forget how to do the differentiation but without practice i would have 90% chances of getting that question wrong. overall it was not that bad. i've already predicted that we will meet about last years condition. i thought it all over yesterday night, how i will go wrong and how my marks will go backwards and not forward. to be honest it was rather sadistic, i sorted of just buried myself will all those suffocating six foot amount of problems. i finished the questions at about an hour. the moment i finished it i almost threw the pen down on the floor. frustration was just building up. i don't know why it happens and it was not as if i didnt know how to do the questions at all but i was frustrated because my prediction was right, cambridge changed their style of questions again. and again it happened in our year. i was not really sure if my answer was correct or not. but no matter what it is i hope sincerely that it will not happen in our physics question. i don't have enough preparation to do any changes they put out in physics. not to mention that i actually failed my first ever physics test when i was form 4. i don't want it to ever happen in my life again. i just hope that there will be no changes in physics paper.

yesterday i even tried 2001 and 2002 bio papers. i found out that i actually forgotten a lot of things that i studied before, my prediction for my exams this year will be doom, doom and more doom. arghhh...... what is it that is actually affecting me? i can't pinpoint myself to anything right now, if i find the source i will terminate it immediately. i keep saying to myself, chia shing, chia shing, this is your last shot whether you like it or not, do your best just do your best. then when i am really really down, you know what i do? i actually took out all the presents you all gave me before i went back to penang. and i looked at it, and it somehow gave me comfort. most of them are jewelleries but the best things of all that i received were memories in which all those small gifts were given. i remember when i got my desk, the first thing i did was arrange those gifts in the top drawer. when mom saw it, she asked..
''wasn't this drawer supposed to be filled with stationeries and not jewelleries?''
i just told her that i did not have any place else to put them so i put them there. at that time, i didn't fully understand my actions but somehow, i only came to find out that they were actually put there to secure my memories with all of you, somehow i unconciously put them there because i wanted to be reminded that all of you were supporting me from a distance. a support that is so close yet so far. i thank you all of you for giving me that and i hope that in this post i can remind you all that you have all the best of luck from me.

oh yea, just wanna tell you all that i will be having my driving test on the next friday! hope i pass, really really hope i pass!

anyway got good news, i will be going back by december. not sure when but when i book my flights, i'll inform you all straight away. and lastly and the most important thing of all, do not slack (haha, i noe a bit harsh), study hard and smart, push yourself over your limits and get the best grade that you can have! good luck everyone!

ps: thanks supa, i will try my best but i know that you'll be studying a lot more harder than me, just noe that i'll be supporting you all the way until you earn you medical degree! luv you.

ps: for yuki. thanks for wishing me good luck on the phone. you too, earn your A1s so you don't give me any reason to crush you wen you say you got A2 nia... haha just kidding, good luck get thise A1 for all of us! (hehe, no pressure given...just do your best)

its about time i uploaded all this into my blog. saw this over a month ago in gurney plaza. i think this is the only shop in that mall that is dedicated to romantic teenage girls. all pink. since my friend loves pink so much, i had to tag along. i almost threw up at the sight of the overwhelming hot pinks. my my, i can't take so much at one go. but then saw a few things that all girls might be interested about.

yuki, i think this is supposed to be your signature doll. so cute... but then i think you need to add the word glide over (chinese) as well.although this one is quite simple but can you see the way it looks at you? hehe, so adorable...


milk, who wants milk? raise your hands people!

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conclusion about all this?

i am a sucker for stuffed pets......

compare the following with the meaning of what andrew posted in his blog...
http://andrewkoay.blogspot.com/
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haizz seems like i have a lot in common with morons... irony...

compare...

What Limchiashing Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

What Nikita Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

What Marissa Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

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What Onmyown Means

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

the hospitality course in our school is having their course test these few weeks. they had been serving the customers for every monday and tuesday. to be one of the customers, we will have to reserve our seats for at least one week before. the whole meal costs 10 dollars. they have the appetisers, the main course and the dessert. i bet when you hear the word 10 bucks, you will think that it is expensive. but then all of that is served in hotel style. if you go to hotel for even the buffets itself in penang costs about 200 dollars per person. so it rather worth it. they have different servings every week. the first time i had the servings they actually served me filipino food. i rather like the appetizer and the dessert. i forgot what the appetizer was called, but the potato in it was cooked with the sweet potato into crisp brown perfection. rather different from the usual western meals. when you actually bite into the appetizer, you can actually taste and smell the freshly baked potatos. i love the appetizer. the dessert was actually a very common asian type of dish. they cooked the gullotine rice and then added a scoop of ice-cream on top of it. along with the contrasting hot and cold ingredients, they put just a sprinkle of cinnamon powder on top of it, adding to the uniqueness of the whole effect. very nice.

my second time was actually italian. to be honest i always hated italian food. the food was always too sour, too cold and so not my taste. but then when they served me the meal that day, it was actually much much better than what the high class restaurants always served. to think that a freshman could actually beat a proffesional was actually a laughable thing to know. we had onion soup for the appetizer, it was a bit too oily but then the taste and texture was superb, i don't really know what they put but then i guess i was always a little biased when it comes to onion since i always loved the smell of it. all i could think at that time was 'good thing they didn't serve an english style onion soup'. if you look up to the original recipe of the english onion soup, it was always dark brown in color and the texture was so thick that the ingredient just kind of like stuck out of the soup. yuck...but then they take it with bread. i really love the caramel pudding with berries on topthe caramel pudding

dessert that day. they had this caramel pudding with raspberrie and blueberry on top. around the pudding you can actually see the home-made type of raspberrie and lemon jam. very natural and very delicious. they even added a little lemon zest on top of the pudding so it was great. every one should try it!

in response to supa's chatline

yea, i thought it was kind of cool as well when i saw the whole blog feature. maybe because i put the blog to classic template, so my chatline was loading a bit slow. your bio test so fast got test ahh.. my trial is next month, a bit scared because my lecturers here have almost finished all of our syllabus already. my chem lecturer even finished the whole organic chem part so we are going to sit for a whole lot of chapters meshed up into one paper. my physics teacher taught us until the light part already. it was interesting but rather hard since there was a lot of things to imply. my main problem now is that i don't know how i am going to memorize a ton of physic formulae in my head. they really pile up to form one high stack of desperation that will definitely make you faint. i am a bit worried about bio too. since the rest of the students sit for the spm last year, they more or less already covered about 70% to 80% of the syllabus we have now, so the lecturer is just going to brief us about a few important topics and teach only those that they haven't covered last year in detail only. the only thing that i can say about myself is I AM DOOMED. i am only consoled by the fact that they haven't covered as much as us in physics, chemistry and a hell lot in maths, so the teacher will teach in detail for the rest of the subjects. i dropped the pure maths class at the start of the course. no point in sitting for the class when you have a full timetable ahead. anyway i wish that i can aim for all A but then i have to work hard on that.

this is my bro with his new haircut. handsome? he's so cute in that pic. it's like he has just updated himself this time. he wants to have my the other bro's haircut the other day and when he requested that haircut, my my my, you should see the way he talked. he was like half shy, half whispering that it just made me want to hug him and tell him that its all right. but by right, i should not since he will be leaving me by december, so it's not good to do that.
my new haircut. when mom saw my haircut, the first thing that she said was,
'so short ah, won't the end be curled outwards'
the thing is i don't really care. haizz, my hair gone again, miss it. fennie said that i 'xiang bu kai' in chinese. haha, maybe.
i always have this kind of impending doom when i sit at the hairdresser's. i always think that, 'what am i doing here.' when she holds up the scissors, my head tells me, 'tell her to stop', when she is going to snap my front side hair, my head screams 'stop!', then when she finishes with my haircut, i always thought 'who cares?'. a lot of people cared about it. to girls, maybe all the girls around me here, cutting your hair is equivalent to committing a sin. see the girl at the background, that's my 22 year old cousin. used to be very close to her as a kid, don't really know what happened to us when we grew up, we just sort of like stop the connection. to be honest, i probably can speak more freely to her brother than her. i always thought that if i had a bigger sister, maybe just maybe, our relationship would be like this. who knows?

oh yea that day when i snapped the pictures at my aunt's house my cousin, andrew was curious and came to see what was happening, since i had two kids hovering around the laptop, getting excited with everything. the little girl that you saw above, suang drop the earphone and bent down a bit to pick it up. it was then that i snapped the photo. then andrew suddenly just ran. i was a bit surprised. then it dawned on me. i had his picture. he was dripping wet and half naked with only a towel draped across his bony hips, haha, he looked like a drenched rabbit... i teased him by telling him that i would post the pic on the net. he shouted out in protest, but then he knew i would never do that..
suang saying something at the background.
my bro posting himself. this stance looks so much like the position kean used when he's taking a picture. when i see this stance from both of my brothers i always thought that they are distancing themselves and trying to look cool. it kind of gets on with my family though. i wonder how boon will look when he grows up. maybe like kean, he will leave a long thread of swooning females. probably more since he's more accessible than kean. haha..
suang amusing herself in front of the camera. this one also will be a heartbreaker or should i say heart -twister. you should have seen her when she was with me. she clings to you every single moment and demands every single attention that you can give her. that day when she was in front of the computer, she kept smashing the mouse area, when you tell warn her that it was wrong she looks at you with her big round innocent eyes, then pucker her lips up and say, 'it's paining?'. haha, she really is quick to save herself from a bigger impact and guess what, she's only five. she's positively annoying at times but then she's just as quick to squeeze your heart into a dry pulp. she stayed with us for 3 days that time and she was missing her parents like hell. when she called her parents. she was half sobbing and half trying to put up an understanding tone. she said, ' Daddy, are you alright? can you sleep at night?' she sniffed, then she said 'did you eat well?' sniffing again, then her voice brightened up when her father asked what she was doing there. haha, she's so quick to change from one expression to another. it's a wonder how her mother survives all that.