the crying period

our bio A2 is currently covering on biodiversity. so in accordance to the chapter our bio teacher showed us a video that really had almost all the girls in our class cry. ok, so i named this the crying period. u'll understand why later. and if u r an animal lover or will cry at any cruelty or sad events, please skip the next paragraph.

actually when the video started, it actually showed a small raccoon-like animal struggling with all its 4legs while being hanged suspended from a man's hand. then the man actually swung this animal with full force and smashed it on the ground. this was already horrible, and you could actually hear the animal crying out, as if all the sound it made was unintentional and forced out of its lungs. then the cameras actually turned on to an Alsatian dog. like the small raccoon animal, it was also hanged suspended by its tail while struggling furiously to get out of their grasp. perhaps the most heart breaking thing at that time was hearing the dog howl in horror as the hunter wielded his knife and started to cut the fur coat of the dog from it penis. from there onwards, the man just tore the skin off the dog while men who were surrounding the scene were jesting on how amusing the event looked to them. when the tearing reached the head, they yanked the whole skin off forcefully and then threw the still breathing dog to a heap of carcasses beside the man. at the time, the dog was breathing in an agonizing manner, no tears, no sound, just the harsh breathing of a rough pink-fleshed animal with only hints of their former fur around the sockets of their eyes, lying there, almost too wiped out from a staggering amount of pain. there were like around thousands of captive animals there, some were hitting against the cage, trying to escape while the others just sat quietly, trembling, knowing anyway that they were going to die. can you imagine that those beautiful sleigh dogs that were shown as happy, playful, hardworking big alive bundles of white and grays in tv being submitted to such a life? and do you know why they kept those animals alive while butchering them? they kept them so because the fear they produce will induce hormones in their bodies to keep the fur soft. this is just so purely disgusting, yuck!

although i didn't cry throughout the whole video, i felt as if some parts of me had just died, just like that and i felt so numb in some sense that i couldn't feel anymore emotions surrounding me than only being aware that i dammed up something in myself. i could only hear what the teacher said throughout the lecture afterward but all of those words just had no meaning anymore.

i went into that phase a lot of times in my life, but when it became too much, i had a lot of trouble going back to normal again. although i understand what such things does to my life, it was not something that u get use to.

but i just want to say this, if u see someone selling furcoats on the streets (usually when u go to the north) or in any place else, DO NOT BUY!! really, you'll regret ur spur of the moment when you meet these animals, because they are truly beauties of nature and BEAUTIES STAY ALIVE WITH EVERYTHING ATTACHED TO THEM! anyway, fur coats are not suitable for humans, they make you look like big bird from sesame street. if they did, then we would have them sprouting throughout our bodies (which most people will shave off !!)